You know, it’s funny sometimes how you can start out with a goal, thinking the end result will be one thing and having a pretty good idea of how you’re going to get to it, and then the whole thing takes you on an entirely different journey altogether, however you still somehow find yourself at your ultimate goal.
If you’ll remember, my goal this month was to get up early each morning in attempt to get more done during the day. The beginning of the month went off without a hitch – I was up and at ’em by 5:30-6am each morning for a good week and a half, working away in my office, already on my second cup of coffee by the time the sun peaked its way through the trees, thinking Wow! I really love the morning, it’s so quiet and beautiful! I am totally rocking this! Until one night when I got a 24 hour flu, was up ALL night, and about destroyed my alarm as it went off that next morning. Snooze wasn’t gonna cut it after the night I’d just had so I turned the alarm off and slept til noon. And then of course my sleep schedule was totally whacked and I was up til 2am every night for the rest of the month, sleeping until 8 or 9 the next morning. But, if you’re thinking this month was a complete loss for me, you’d be wrong…
The actual reasoning behind my goal this month – to get more done, to find more time to work or to be creative or to go on more walks or to better prepare for and go after other goals I have – all of that ended up happening anyway, in its own way and in its own timing. I didn’t just lie around late at night watching Netflix (ok, maybe there were a few nights here and there when that happened). Instead, something crazy awesome happened and I became this busy little midnight bee – writing more than I’ve written in a long, long time, and just as I’d found the beauty of the sunrise’s light on my office walls at 6am, I also found it in the ceiling of stars from my office nook, which seemed to keep me company in those late nights too… and it was just as meaningful, encouraging and inspiring.
Isn’t that how it often is? That our life lesson might include recognizing and learning to embrace the “natural” timing of things? I found that lesson again this month, I was able to embrace it, and in turn – I found a new burst of creativity, something far more precious to me than waking up at a certain time each morning simply because I’d written it down as a “rule” – a gateway – to my goal. And you know? I do still feel I “owned it” this month – it was not easy at first to not feel like a failure when I was up late every night and “slept in” each morning. I certainly had to choose to embrace the way things were shifting and focus not so much on how I was getting there, but to realize that I was still finding my “extra” time – it just looked different than how I thought it would look.
I think it’s important to make goals. I think it’s important to hold ourselves accountable and to state our dreams and to share those ideas with others… BUT – I think it’s also important to give ourselves some slack… yes, to continue to work our asses off (I believe they call it “hustlin'” these days) and to hold onto the passion we hold for our dreams like it’s all we’ve got somedays, but also to loosen the reins of control or planning a bit so that just maybe our dreams can find us in their own ways too.
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