Crew Praise The Road to Love

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August 25, 2016

We are home.

As I write this, it’s 10:54pm on Thursday night and I am so exhausted but also so blissfully happy – I am sitting here in our bed (oh, how I have missed our bed!) as sweet baby Crew sleeps in his crib next to us, and Christian sits next to me, and we’re just sitting here… staring at him… in awe and disbelief that he’s here. That we’re having this moment, a moment we’ve dreamed about for so many years. I don’t know whether to laugh or cry, and so I do both. (Christian is used to this by now.) I’ve held a gentle grip on my emotions the past 2 weeks. I know God gave me the strength and courage to do so, especially in the week that Crew was born, so that I wouldn’t miss a single detail of His beautiful ways. I think I surprised Christian – perhaps caught him off-guard a bit – when he’d look at me during certain moments, expecting me to be sobbing, and I wouldn’t be. I felt very present and while I knew that all of my emotions and tears and an overwhelming sense of gratitude was only a reach away, I didn’t go there.

I had a few conversations with God about this, during our time in Crew’s home state last week. And I felt Him reassure me that He would meet me as those moments of emotion found me, as I allowed them to greet me, and that it would happen in perfect time. There was one moment last week when I said ‘okay’ and had one of the most surreal and beautiful moments with God and my son, as I allowed the tears to fall. I will share that moment in this space when the time is right but for now, I’ll sit here in the quiet… as I listen to Crew breathe and make his cute sleeping sighs. I’ll sit here holding my husband’s hand… and marvel over the journey we just experienced together. And tomorrow, as I take Crew out on my favorite walking path – the one I walked alone so many times as I prayed and spent time with God, sometimes just letting the tears fall as I shared with Him all the ways my heart hurt and longed for my baby… or the times I listened to the birds in the trees and held my hand in the air so that I might praise Him for all of His ways – tomorrow I will look down at my sweet son’s face and let the emotions come. I will let them come and I will continue to give praise… to the Son who died so that I might experience moments such as these.

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  • Oh Emily! I’m so happy for you and Christian!

  • I couldn’t be happier for your family. Welcome home Crew! Xo!

  • All I can do is smile after reading this. Much love to you and your beautiful family!!! XOXO

  • so beautiful and so happy for you all. welcome home, crew!!! enjoy those snuggles. xo

    • here if you need anything! and the solly baby wrap is so wonderful. just let me know if you have any questions- i would love to help. you’re going to be such a fantastic momma

  • I am still in awe. This was such a beautiful post, Em. Congrats again!

  • I just love this so much.

  • Goodness, be still my heart. I love His love for us <3

  • I am SO happy for you & Christina, Emily! What a blessing! Motherhood looks so amazing on you. I hope you have a wonderful walk today with you son <3

  • Jae

    Welcome to motherhood, Emily! I’m certain that you and Christian will be ever-loving parents to Crew. Such a beautiful little family. <3

  • I’m still overcome with praise and joy for you and Christian and sweet little Crew. I look forward to reading about all the adventures God has in store for your little family.

  • You are a mom! Praise God! Praise His Holy Name! Your mama must be so excited to be a “grammie” now. Can’t wait to hear more, see more and of course give you “grammie advice,” when asked of course (leave your own mama for that). God is so very good!

  • You’re giving me all the emotions too! What a blessing. I still can’t wait to hear ALL about this and to see him and you guys grow.

  • Congratulations, and praise God! Blessings to you and Christian as you continue this journey <3

  • I am so happy for you! The Lord’s faithfulness to provide you with the family you longed for is a beautiful illustration of His love for you and for your son, and really for all of us who are waiting. Thank you for sharing.

  • Oh my goodness! Congratulations. This is the sweetest thing. I’m so happy for you.

  • this is all so beautiful. I have no other words for it!

  • 😭😭😭 He is faithful and has blessed you with the most amazing gift!! This is such a beautiful sharing of your heart, Em. All the hugs and praise!!! XO

  • Oh, Emily. I’m just so thrilled for you.

  • He is so lucky to have you as his mama πŸ™‚ beautiful answer to prayer!

  • So, so very happy for all of you….If I’m being honest though I am happiest for Crew. What a blessing to go through life with 2 amazing parents that feel so much love and have so much appreciation and joy and gratitude for life. What a blessing!

  • He’s so beautiful! Congratulations on your little (BIG!) blessing. πŸ™‚

  • I’m crying with you and/or for you. Beautiful. So happy for you guys! These are the things I need right now, happy wonderful perfect love stories πŸ™‚
    I had a rough few weeks (see the blog… ugh… dont want to bring you down during your high but, you’ll understand more – and I’M OKAY NOW – still sad sometimes, but I am okay) and there were times when I bawled my eyes out, screamed, sobbed. But there were also times where I held it together perfectly and couldn’t shed a tear (even though I felt like I should) because God was making sure I carried myself through the important parts when I wanted to curl up into a ball and just.. be sad. He gave me the strength to make it through. And the end of August was wonderful (fiance’s birthday party was a success!) and this weekend we go to a concert of my favorite band and then drive to Mobile, Alabama from WV to pick up a NEW PUPPY πŸ™‚ So, yea, happy endings and such:)