So who’s sick of me blogging about the weather?? 😉 (I literally just laughed after typing that because even I’M sick of blogging and talking about the weather.) The truth is though, it’s about this time of year when the gray and the cold (but mostly the gray) start to get to me. When I begin to feel uninspired, I get into my head, I start to doubt what I’m doing… oh yeah. The struggle to get out of my head is real (ugly). It’s about this time of year when I spend five hours writing and rewriting a blog post, and by the “end” of it, I’m not even sure of what I was trying to say anymore. So then I start another post, spend another hour on it, only to click “save as draft” once again because I’m still not sure the point of it.
I know this can happen to us writers at any time in the year, but it tends to happen to me more in the winter months. The problem with worrying about feeling uninspired, searching desperately for something to be inspired by, is that it clouds the beauty of the present moment. When I’m ‘in my head’ I am blind to His reminder that even in my seasons of gray, He is still who He was in the seasons of warmth and light.
I had eight blogging topics I’d started and ‘saved as draft’ for today’s post. EIGHT. I won’t tell you the total number of hours I spent on those eight drafts, and I can’t tell you the exact reason why none of them felt right to share today, other than I wasn’t able to fully grasp what each ‘last sentence’ should be in each of those eight posts. I read through scripture after scripture, asking God for some direction… something to inspire me to write clear words – words that my heart would understand right in the moment. And it wasn’t until I read this verse in Psalms that I understood what He’d been trying to tell me the entire weekend.
The LORD is gracious and righteous; our God is full of compassion.
The LORD protects the simple hearted; when I was in great need, He saved me.
Be at rest once more, O my soul, for the LORD has been good to you.
So many reminders in those verses. A reminder that it’s not about me. It’s not about this blog. It’s not about whether or not I feel inspired. It’s not about finishing a perfect post and it’s not about wishing for a season to hurry up and end already. It’s always been and will always be about Him; His goodness and His grace. It’s a reminder to be at rest once more, because if I take anything away from today – it’s that He has been good to me. He, King Jesus, has been good to me. And if that’s not reason enough to begin and end a thought with giving thanks, I don’t know what is.
Today, I am grateful that He is gracious and righteous, that He is full of compassion. I am grateful that in the times I am flighty and unsure and completely all over the place, He is still Christ Jesus and will always remain. I am grateful that He protects the simple hearted, that He saved and continues to save me. That He saves me from my circling thoughts and leads me to still waters where I may rest once more – because His goodness is enough.
What are you grateful for?
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