We got our tree yesterday (Fred IV) and as I sat in our family room that afternoon, admiring our sweet tree as the branches began to rest down, I thought to myself – green is a really great, calming color… more rooms need more green. And then I had a funny thought and wondered if God favored a color and that if He did, it must be green because there is so much of it on our planet. (Random Thoughts by Emily, you’re welcome.)
While I have always loved Christmastime, that love seems to grow the older I get. Somehow, even amidst the (wonderful) chaos that has been our life the past few months, my spirit has begun to slow down to notice life’s moments… even if they’re not my own. The sight of a little boy running up to Santa, at our local Home Depot, and giving him the BIGGEST hug – I mean picture me straight up crying as I stood in aisle 3 with a towel rack and a plunger. (#newhomewoes) And then how about earlier in the weekend when I watched a newlywed couple purchase their first Christmas tree together… I couldn’t help but smile as the girl giddily skipped behind him with her hands clasped up by her face. The REASON for the season is Jesus, oh hands down YES and PRAISE, but I’d like to think that maybe He delights in the magic and wonder we feel this time of year as we carry out traditions or skip around in a parking lot full of trees, or as a little child meets Santa for the first time.
A few weeks ago, my dad and I were talking about Santa Claus and the absolute heartbreak you feel when you find out for the first time that he’s not real. I will never forget the day I found out… I was in 1st grade when a boy in my class started blabbing to everyone that his older brother told him “the truth” and that there was no Santa. I sat there with a look that most likely said, You obviously have no idea what you’re talking about and will be on the naughty list this year. But fast forward to that evening when I was watching the show Home Improvement – the episode where the older Taylor boys tell their little brother that Santa isn’t real. I sat there on the couch thinking – wait a minute. If they’re saying this on Home Improvement it MUST be true?! I marched into the kitchen where my mom was making dinner and asked her straight up- “Mom, I want you to tell me the TRUTH. Is there such thing as Santa?” She looked at me straight in the eye and asked, “Do you really want to know?” I could feel the lump starting to form in my throat and the tears welling in my eyes and I said ever so seriously, “Yes. The truth.” My mom continued to look me in the eye and said, “No, there is no such thing as Santa.” Naturally I burst into tears as I said, “What?!? So I guess next you’re going to tell me there’s no easter bunny or tooth fairy either!” (To which my mom’s eyes grew two sizes in panic – which of course I saw – and I ran straight up to my room to continue crying and to write in my diary. Dear Diary, THERE IS NO SANTA. OR EASTER BUNNY. OR TOOTH FAIRY!!)
My poor mom.
Still, each year, usually as I’m watching The Polar Express or Miracle on 34th Street, I start to feel the magic again and my heart says, maybe I’ll let myself believe for one more year 😉 Perhaps it’s something that stays with you, no matter how old you get. At least, I hope that’s the case.
Today I am grateful for the magic and wonder this month brings. I am grateful for a husband who embraces it all as well, and who sweetly smiles at me across the dinner table as we realize – this could be our last Christmas of just the two of us. (Be still my heart!) I am grateful for the parents who let their children enjoy the magic of Christmas, and I am grateful for the guys who dress up like a big ol’ Santa Claus and return smiles to all the little ones who catch his glance… even to the 31 year old gals, tearing up in aisle 3.
What are you grateful for?
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